February 2012
I’m about to just breakdown and cry because I am shook with so much stress.
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I hate when my weight is talked about
Unless I bring it up, it’s one of the most uncomfortable things to be talked about. People don’t realize what’s triggering and what’s not because some people just don’t know. Like in French today when we were talking about height and someone said “oh it’s because your skinny” obviously they were going to continue and added, “we’re the...
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Everything in my language arts class I write about is my eating disoder. We write about ourselves so much and personal experiences and the more we write about the topics we do, the more I feel limited. I feel like I’m letting my eating disorder define who I am, and I feel like I have literally nothing else important or significant in my life other than me being an anorexic with bulimic...
I am seriously so tired to do anything meeeeh PILE OF HOMEWORK STOP STARING AT ME I’LL DO YOU LATER
bloodshots:
When my cat dies I’m probably going to go into a mild state of depression and become a drug addict.
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My mom and dad shouldn’t make my college choices. If I want to go to a four year first, then WHY NOT. This is frustrating! At least if you talk about me me a little more secretive! On the bright side I totally just burned my dad. He always yells at me for leaving the oven on and this time he left the stove burner on and I look up at him from outside and I’m like “ARE YOU KIDDING...
So the college counselor came into our class for a presentation today and I am utterly stressed for college! Just thinking about it makes me cringe with anticipation and endless worries of being accepted here, there or not being accepted at all. I’m pretty decided on what I want to do, but I have NO idea what college. And I have to sign up for the ACT and SAT like…. now.
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When your history teachers believes in you more that you could go to a four year right after high school than you dad <
Anonymous asked: You're a cute dweep:)
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“I have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love...”
– Voltaire (via moon—magic)
“She wasn’t bitter. She was sad, though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The...”
– The Perks of Being a Wallflower (via achroniccase)
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SO BIG NEWS! I’d like to exultantly inform you all that I will be writing in the not just school, but ALSO the CITY newspaper for La Mirada! I am so thrilled that Mr. Alverez asked me if I could write up a few entries, and as soon as I get the list, I’ll be able to! I’m not only thinking about the pleasures that this writing position will bring me, but also how fantastic it will...
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Hazel Grace from The Fault In Our Stars is my...
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My escape are books
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"Do you like me?"
cuanonymous:
Sometimes I just want to be straight out and ask that. I’m not afraid to ask the question, I’m afraid of the answer. There is only two real answers to that question, “yes” and “no”. It’s the answer “no” that I’m afraid of and there is always one reason why it’s a no: “I only see you as a friend.”
I just complain and I’m annoying and those are the main things I need to work on. I think it’s time for some blackout poetry.
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“Bulimia scared the hell out of me. Anorexia is so disembodied, so imperceptible...”
– Wasted: A Memoir of Bulimia and Anorexia (via e-xcess)
I title my alarms things that would make me feel guilty so I wake up.
I.e.:
#1 if Augustus could drive to the liquor store to buy cigarettes for his life metaphor while he’s dying of cancer, then I could wake up
#2 if jacob could protect the island then you can get your ass out of bed
#3 you’re fat get up
(the 3rd one is only used when exceeded my calorie limit but it makes me...
“There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There’s .1 and .12 and .112 and an...”
– Hazel Grace Lancaster, The Fault in our Stars (via ghostword)
877-casheventually:
wanting to kill myself for not having a 4.0 and being too fat and not motivated or smart enough and im tired of dealing with this
Okay and now I have a 29% in French. How do you go from 109% to 29%. What the actual fuck is going on.
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Today was a good day and I am happy
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miguel: she's like the hottest jew ever
matthew: oh yeah... she's a jew
miguel: don't say it like that...
“That’s who you really like. The people you can think out loud in front of.”
– John Green (via hyperbolequeen)
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